Author: Ron Johnson

I Don’t Like My Kid

Ron Johnson Children, emotional maturity, family, Feelings, marital, relationships, Self-Awareness, social esteem

“I don’t like my kid.” This statement must sound outrageous. It certainly isn’t something that should be said frivolously or even teasingly. It most certainly shouldn’t be said to any child. It might, however, be a statement that could be said to a confidant who could be of some help understanding and dealing with not liking a child. We hear these statements rather frequently from people who come to us seeking some guidance with dealing with their children. More regularly, however, we hear statements of dislike for some member of one’s family, be it child, spouse, or extended family member. Let me give you some examples of the reasons people feel these things and feel safety saying them to us in confidence. Secondly, I would like to provide some reasons for why people don’t actually like people in their families, how liking and loving are often quite disparate, and thirdly, how people might handle such feelings.

Before we get to examples, causes, and cures, I should mention that people don’t readily make such statements about their family members. Rather, they tend to simply complain about them. With a few exceptions most people come to therapists with complaints about people in their lives, very often their spouses, parents, or children, and sometimes their bosses or colleagues at work. It is always a challenge to help people understand their feelings of dislike, which is usually based on some kind of loss and concomitant hurt, but it can take months or years, if ever, for people to see their own feelings. It is hardest for people to admit that they don’t like their children, which is where we will start.

Disliking children

Consider the following stories of children that we have heard (all identifying information adjusted retaining the essence of the complaint:

  • Child has molested several other children. The church the family used to attend has not allowed them to return to church, at least with this child. School has been on the alert because of the possibility of his molesting other children. He has been tested as intellectually functioning several years below his physical age
  • Child of nine tends to throw a fit when he doesn’t get his way, yelling and screaming, often breaking things, and rolling on the floor. He is actually quite bright and has been tested as being intellectually far ahead of his physical years
  • Child is almost completely nonverbal with anything he thinks and feels. He can be satisfactorily in his room playing on his computer for hours. He does not respond to questions or statements.
  • Child steals food, so much so that her parents have had to put a lock on the fridge door and pantry to keep her from stealing food.
  • Child frequently stops up the toilet with his feces and refused to deal with it. Often, he has left the toilet bowl full without telling anyone. Once, he tried to plunge the toilet without success and then used several towels to clean up the mess before hiding the dirty towels in a closet only to be found several days later by a parent.
  • Child is routinely dishonest, even about very small things, so much so that she can be trusted in any way. She might lie about what she did in school, what she likes, where she went, or what she feels.

None of these children is intrinsically likable although understandably, it is hard for a parent to admit they don’t like these children despite their tendency to yell at them, demean them, punish them, and complain to us about them. We have found it helpful to help parents of difficult children to admit that they “don’t like them.” Then, this disliking tends to decrease in intensity and duration and be replaced with not liking something about the kid, perhaps most things. This can lead to appropriate encouraging and challenging children who need both. Importantly, we do not suggest saying, “I love you but I don’t like what you do” because a child cannot really distinguish between what s/he does and what s/he is.

Dislike other family members

  • Man and wife couple. I regularly do an intake assessment on a couple in which I initially meet with the couple to hear what their concern is, then meet with each partner separately to gather a social history and make clinical observations, this followed by extensive psychological testing and then an interpretative session with both of them present. The couple in my mind is one where during my session with the wife, she demanded that she spend an hour talking singularly about what she determined was wrong about her husband, and wanted to continue for a second hour.
  • Other couples. With few exceptions all couples complain about one another taking the forms of feeling neglected or registering complaints about the spouse
  • Extended family members. This is very common, like the mother-in-law who isn’t liked, the father-in-law who intrudes on the family all time, the alcoholic family member, or perhaps just the family member who has a substantially different political or religious persuasion. These days, many people separate from extended family because one member loves Trump or hates Trump together with all that goes with these loves and hates.
  • A sister who alleged that her brother molested her when she was a child. This woman later admitted that it was their father who molested her, not the brother, but she hasn’t had the wisdom and courage to apologize for her allegation
  • A woman who has totally separated herself from her biological family bringing a good deal of hurt and misunderstanding to her family members. Many people have been in the same situation where one child is molested and damaged while another child is favored in the family making two people being raised in “completely different families.”

You didn’t have any choice to what family you were born. You do have a choice with whom you make friends., Certain family members may not be ones you choose as friends. Then you might find a way to keep a safe distance from family member you don’t particularly like. It is never helpful to tell family members that you don’t them, and even worse to act out your dislike of them by choosing to be with them more than you want to.

So, what are the things that have caused a person to dislike a family member, and what can be done about it? Let’s first look at the causes of disliking a family member.

Causes of disliking a family member

  • Simple, if also profound differences in persuasion, values, and beliefs
  • Projection of other people you dislike who are of a similar persuasion
  • Long-term dislike that has not been seen and expressed, much less resolved
  • Outrageous behavior that you have tolerated but not effectively tolerated
  • A genuine impediment in the other person, such as intellectual, physical, or emotional that has implications for how the person engages the social world
  • Envy of the other person, perhaps that s/he has something or has had opportunities that you haven’t had
  • You love the person, perhaps deeply, even though you don’t like him/her. This is something that Deb and I deal with all the time. Love is blind, so the saying goes, but liking or disliking is not blind. So, we end up with blind spots that are related to the people we love.

Dealing with not liking someone in your family

  • Admit to it: first to yourself and find a way to accept the fact that you may, indeed, love someone, perhaps very deeply, whom you don’t like.
  • Differentiate what you like from what you don’t like. You may discover that there is a lot more that you like than what you dislike but you have fallen prey to thinking that you have to like everything about someone.
  • Admit to at least one other person that you don’t like, not the person him/herself; perhaps a close confident or a therapist
  • Find a way to carefully distance yourself from this person. You may never need to deal with the disliking, but you can keep a safe distance so the dislike doesn’t turn into hate or disgust, much less your saying something untoward
  • Keep a safe distance, which may in terms of geography, frequency of contacts, and intensity of contacts. You may never really be able to particularly like certain family members but you can love them…at a safe distance.
  • Not liking spouse is a case in its own because ideally one’s spouse or life’s partner should be a friend first, a lover second, and a partner third. Many romantic relationships begin with love and sex first and then partnership but never friendship. Making friends with a spouse is a real challenge, especially if you have been unhappy with him/her for a long time and have been tolerating them.

The more you admit to not liking someone, the less the not liking will dominate your feeling and the more you might just be able to love the person more as the not liking shrinks.

 

 

 

Good Men to Great Men

Ron Johnson Development, emotional maturity, men's issues, Opportunity, Self-Awareness, social esteem, Spiritual

In my work with men I have found myself telling men that they are “good men” but not great men. I have been pleasantly surprised how this phraseology has resonated with men. Somehow, they seem to understand that, however good they are, they can be great. In this blog I will attempt to discuss “goodness” in men, potential “greatness”, what these words mean, and how men some men achieve greatness, and how men have achieved greatness. I apologize for my attention to men in this regard of goodness and greatness as I mean no disservice to women but rather to honor my understanding of men. I leave it to others to examine this matter for women. Please allow me to use the masculine pronoun most of the time.

What is “goodness” in men

The word goodness, like so many other important words in the psychological dictionary, is undefined. Don’t be concerned. In my mind, the most important aspects of psychology are undefined, like the terms love, truth, and even God. Furthermore, the basic ingredients of physics, time, distance, and mass, are also undefined. We understand something that is undefined by observing it the way we observe time or love, not in a rigid definition of such things. Goodness is like that: we know it when we feel it and we know it when we see it.

Having said that goodness is undefined, we can look at some ingredients and results of goodness. The basic ingredient of being goodness in a person is the result of that person having a good sense of self. Oops, we’ve used another undefined term, but hopefully you can ride with me on this one because the concept of self is pretty basic to psychological functioning. While it is undefined, self refers to the essence of a person, which might be called spirit or soul. Importantly, a person with basic goodness has a sense of his/her “self” (or soul, or spirit). Importantly, if I have a sense of self, I will have a sense that there is something good inside of me. This goodness is something like feeling a kind of perfection in me. This feeling of goodness or self is not the same as perfect speech or activity, both of which are often imperfect, just as the words I am writing this very moment are imperfect. A person with a sense of goodness knows, perhaps without words, that inside of him/her there is a kind of perfect something. We call it self.

Beyond feeling this goodness, good people do good things and say good things. In other words, their goodness is reflected in what they say or do. The saying or doing good things is not the core of goodness but rather the result of goodness. In fact, the more a person feels his/her inner goodness, the more they will say and do good things.

I often speak to men about their basic goodness, or they’re being “a good person” or sometimes “a very good person.” Having said that, I often suggest to the man that however good they are, they can be great. What does that mean?

Greatness

Greatness is another undefined term that you can understand and use by seeing the result of greatness. Basically, and importantly, greatness is achieved when a person (a good person to start) has got beyond himself. This is tricky to explain because I suggested that goodness is achieved when a person knows himself and accepts himself. Greatness can only be achieved after a man (or person) has this sense of the goodness of his soul and the understanding that his self (soul, spirit) is perfect in its basic construction. When a person has this feeling of goodness and inner perfection, he is then finds a way to move beyond self. Moving beyond self does not mean that you abandon yourself, but rather that you use your self/soul/spirit in some kind of way that I define as great.

Greatness is usually demonstrated by some kind of activity that helps humankind in some way. This can be creating a masterful piece of art, solving the problem of nuclear fusion, writing a book, or finding a way to make trash collecting more efficient and productive, both for the workers and for the customers who choose to recycle. There are many other forms of greatness that might now actually show on the surface. A great person may devote his life entirely to parenting an impaired child or in some kind of volunteer work. The key in all of this is what I call a feeling, “This is not about me. It is about serving the world in some way.”

Understandably, the result do greatness may be fame and fortune but for the truly great person neither of these is important. Very important, however, is for the good-to-great person to overcome anger and fear. A good example of a great person is that he is not worried at all about what people think of him because his focus is on being great and doing something great. This is very hard to achieve as most men are too quick to anger and many hold a deep-seated fear that shows itself directly in anxiety or indirectly in addiction and avoidance.

Some examples

These are real men but their names and stations in life have been altered to protect their privacy.

  • Jack is a semi-retired broker who is probably a millionaire or more. He has always been hard-working, honest, and faithful to his wife. He has had an inclination to anger and a kind of sexual addiction that showed itself in undue sexual pressure with his wife. Greatness for Jack, as I told him, would be to overcome anger entirely, treat his wife with respect. He appears to be quite demanding as he has been in charge of all of his life, his wife, his kids, and his work all his life. And, oh, by the way, not to give in to her.
  • Sam is a pastor, a truly good man who has served in the ministry for 50 plus years, quite successfully. He has had a financial problem that has plagued him all his wife shown most specifically in his having been unable to say “no” to his wife. He also has suffered low self-esteem that no one knows but me (and now his wife), which led to his intense fear of hurting his wife and having her disappointed in him. Greatness for Sam would be to be true to himself, honest, and slowly erase the feeling that something is wrong with him.
  • Peter is a retired police officer who served his community for decades, lastly as chief of police. He has fallen into a tendency to be irritable and not particularly honest about his medical/physical life. Greatness for Peter is to be honest, first with himself and then with his wife. Then he would be able to transfer some his former greatness into his new life, which is not family, kids, grandkids, and perhaps other activities.
  • Brad is a successful businessman but had a lifelong tendency to be angry after trying hard to achieve harmony. In fact, when he can’t find harmony, he explodes, a phenomenon that is quite common among harmony-based people. Greatness for him is to reduce anger entirely, develop a better self-esteem and acceptance of his limitations and mistakes. Then he would need to deal effectively with his wife who, sadly, like many wives, is often critical of him.
  • Tom is quite bright, achieved a master’s degree in his chosen profession but has been unsuccessful in his profession and in all of his relationships. His goodness is composed of intelligence, integrity, truth, and good work. His downfall is the feeling that he has to be perfect so he is harder on himself than anyone else. He has been fired several times because of his intransigence. First, he has to find his basic goodness, that followed by finding a way to enter his profession and succeed so that he can better the world.

Find your goodness. Find your inner perfection. Get some help to do that. Then you will be able to feel so good about yourself that you forget about yourself. Then you are a great man.

The Independent Personality and Relationships

Ron Johnson communication, Connection, happiness, love, marital, men's issues, Personality, Positive psychology, relationships, Self-Awareness, social esteem

I see a lot of men in my office who are independent by nature, and I know a few more in my acquaintances and friendships. Independence is a truly remarkable personality trait that I admire and respect. Usually, independent men (and women, of course) cut their own lines in the earth, live by their own drummers, so to say, and are responsible. More often than not, these men work for themselves often creating some business from nothing and find success in the world of work if not without challenges, setbacks, and mistakes. In fact, one of the distinct characteristics of independent people is that they are not heartbroken by such twists in the road and find ways to pick up the pieces and start again. In this blog I want to unpack these characteristics and other traits that independent people have, compare independence to dependence that is a hallmark of many other people, examine some of the challenges that they face I life, and then focus on the particular challenges that they have in maintaining relationships.

Characteristics of independent people

  • Hard-working. These folks often work way beyond the standard 40-hour week. Companies love these them because they work late, take work home, and work efficiently. I know of few who work anything less than 60 hours a week and I know of one CPA who worked 80 to 90 hours during tax season.
  • Driven. Since most of them have their own businesses, they work even harder than other folks do. They don’t need someone pushing them; they push themselves.
  • Successful. While success may come late to some of these men, usually they find it early in life and continue finding new challenges, new failures, and new successes
  • Self–critical. They tend to be hard on themselves for not doing the right thing all the time, having wasted time on a failed project, or just not meeting their own expectations.
  • Quality or quantity. Most independent people are quality-based while some are quantity-based. These are different ways some men go about life. Usually, they work to perfect their product, whatever that might be. The quantity-based guys are better at accepting less-than-perfect for their value of getting lots of things done, perhaps not all with quality.
  • Outspoken. They speak their minds and are not deterred by rejection, or so it seems. They have opinions and are not afraid to share them. Indeed, there are introverted independent guys but even these guys tend to speak their minds more than the introverted who is caught by fear of disapproval.
  • Work alone. They prefer to go about their lives, work, play, and relationships on their own for the most part. Indeed, some independent fellows have one or two people working for them, or even a score or more, but even in these situations, they prefer to work alone, whether on the jobsite or in their office
  • Interested. These guys are usually looking ahead at something that they can do. They can get bored easily and avoid boredom by thinking of new and different things that they can do. Again, this could be with work, play, or relationships.

Examples of independent men

  • N.B.: identifying characteristics of these guys have been altered while trying to stay true to the essence of what they do in their lives.
  • Sam. Sam is now retired after a very successful position in the field of recreation training. Previously, he had been in a helping profession, and now he has a developing profession that is only marginally related to what he did before. He has never been married but has had several unsuccessful relationships including one early in his life that may have been the love of his life.
  • Ben. Ben is an independent businessman in the trades although he is also a general contractor, buys and sells property, and is always on the lookout for a new deal. I see him with his wife of some years with all the challenges of relational life (see below).
  • Peter. Like Ben, Peter has been unsuccessful in his relationships but is still working on it. He worked hard to get through college and immediately started his own business, which now is quite successful, something few men achieve by age 35.
  • Bill. Bill was actually brilliant but brilliance didn’t lend itself to doing the necessary in school because he was interested in learning, not producing. He tried sales, working for his father, and drove a cab until he found a way to develop a counseling business despite that fact that he only had a B.A. and certainly not licensed. Bill also had several failed relationships and finally ended up married to a pretty psychologically impaired woman.
  • Butler. Early in life Butler decided that he wasn’t going to take any crap from anyone having taken a lot of it from his alcoholic father. He never worked for himself but found a way into a profession for the paycheck. He came into my office with the proverbial female hand in his back and seemed to profit from coming here, but eventually his wife could no longer tolerate his tendency to get angry so easily.
  • Pat. You wouldn’t know that Pat is independent because he has learned to accommodate to everyone around him. Yet at his deepest heart Pat is a person who would really want to do what he does without any interference. Now a doctoral student in a challenging field and at a challenging university, he is finding his way to be truer to himself, which means learning and ultimately writing in his profession.
  • Craig. Craig is a Buddhist chaplain after having been a successful musician and previously an enlisted man in the military. He came to me because of some questions in his marriage, which ultimately blew up in his face a few months later. While brilliant and certainly independent, he is finding his way in a new relationship but with trepidation because of previous failures.
  • Perry. Perry is an engineer whom I first met when he lost his best friend, mentor, and boss at the company he worked for. This led to a couple of other failed work relationships, not because of his lack of skill and work but he couldn’t seem to fit in. He has been unsuccessfully married for many years, a marriage that was not well-conceived and hence not well-developed.
  • Kelsy. He is a young man who just barely passed high school despite his evident brilliance. He just stopped doing what everyone wanted him to do, mostly in school, but found that he didn’t know what he wanted to do because he was so good at pleasing. He will be taking a year off to find himself.
  • Jacob. Jacob in a physician now but started out as an engineer. His private practice is barely making it despite his intelligence, drive, integrity, and general capability in his profession. He is in the process of getting divorced, perhaps largely because his investments were made without consent of his wife, and often without her knowledge.
  • Paul. Paul has actually never worked for himself but he might have done better had he do so because he has worked in many settings, all in his profession, and none of them has ever worked out for him. He is perhaps one of the most intelligent people I have ever met and is also very likable because of his connection-based nature. Yet, he has also failed to develop and sustain a female relationship

Challenges for independent men

  • Going it alone to a fault. While it is in the nature of independent people to do their own thing, work alone, and work hard, it is not in their nature to cooperative, compromise, and collaborate. Usually, they have been so successful in their work lives (although not all as noted above), they do not have the ability to truly listen to others and find a path forward that is good for all.
  • Failed relationships. This is almost a given with every independent man I have ever known. The love, often deeply, but their love is quite personal, not so much interpersonal. They can give but usually find themselves giving in because the wheels of giving and taking are not well oiled. Some get angry, some become addicted, some just avoid, but few of these men really know how to do the stuff that it takes to live with someone who doesn’t have the same perspective that they do.
  • Anger and its cognates. This could be “frustration,” irritability, complaining about people, or just plain unhappiness.
  • Lost opportunities. Several of the men I identified above have failed to go with the right job, the right school, or the right woman, and paid a dear price for that failure. Often, they were looking for the perfect school, job, or woman; otherwise, they just couldn’t pull the lever because they weren’t sure of the choice. They were looking for perfection
  • Not trusting their intuition. The jobs, school, and relationships that men got into that weren’t good for them is because they didn’t trust that this thing was not good for them even though I hear years later that they “really knew” that this job, woman, or school was wrong.

Not everyone is independent

While not the purpose of this blog, there are people who are very good at depending on others, cooperating, compromising, and giving in. As you might expect, however, these people tend to give in more than they give and up in some kind of job, relationship, or elsewhere not wanting to be there but not knowing how to get out. A lot has been written about the so-called “codependent” person, a term that is not in my vocabulary, because the individual who is allegedly codependent is usually dependent on a person who is addicted to something, and so the both of them are dependent on different things.

Suggestions for independent people

  • Affirm your independence, realizing that this is a wholly good thing, a godly thing, and a gift that you have been given and/or developed on your own. Most people don’t have what you have. You are not afraid of disapproval, at least on the surface, which gives you a leg up on most people.
  • Look to develop appropriate dependence. This means finding what I call the “N word”, not the one you’re thinking of, but “need.” You don’t “need” people, which is good, but you really do need people, just not the way you think of it. You need people to add to your nature, with whom to cooperate and compromise. This is not easy for you to do, and it does not mean giving in.
  • Avoid the tendency to give in. Because you can do almost anything, you can too easily do what you shouldn’t dl: give in. Give all you want, all you have, your left arm, or your life. But don’t give in. Giving is godly; giving in is not. You will pay a heavy price.
  • You will not find an independent person just like you. You will find independent people who are like you in wanting to do their own thing, but you won’t find someone, whether lover, friend, or coworker, who sees the world the way you see it. Give up on finding this perfect person. You might be lucky enough to find a woman who is independent, but likely she is just as stubborn as you are in the way she sees things.
  • Ultimately, you have to add to your independent nature, but you aren’t good at this. You might just muse about how you are lonely, unhappy, or looking for the perfect person (job, play), and give up on that idea and look for a good person, a good job, or a good place to live. Then you can make it better…and great